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Wednesday, October 08, 2003
whoa.
first time i got no idea what to blog about...
i shall just see what comes to my mind.
well, thanks alot for telling me once again how much i mean to you.
but no matter what, i know i can never take the first place in your heart.
i can only be the second.
but i'm fine with it....
*i think.
though my heart breaks into a million pieces everytime i see you with her,
i'm willing to bear this pain.
For you.
i'll turn a blind eye.
its ok....
at the very least, i know i have an important place in your heart.
you'll never know how much i love you.
and you'll never know how much you mean to me.
you promised to be there for me whenever i need a shoulder to lean on or to cry on.
but strangely, you are the one who also hurts me most.
so tell me, how am i going to confide in you?
anyways, minzhi got a new crush.
pretty surprising.
good and bad.
good: at least she can take her mind off furong now.
bad: she happens to be one of my closest friends and she's a straight....
whatever it is, i shall not interfere anymore.
to suen: you know and can be sure that i'll always stand by you, girl.
so no matter what the future holds, remember, i'll always be there for you to support you through.
i promise.
even though i cant give really good advise or anything, but whenever you simply need a listening ear, remember, i'm here.
to tric: you go girl!
take more initiative and dont be shy alright? -grins.
there's competition for you!....
*sigh
so many many problems nowadays.
my 'happy-go-lucky days' are gone.
there's only limited time left before the battle starts.
anyway, baccalorette service today made me realise that PL is indeed very sheltered.
this is the place where i came to know all my dear friends.
this is also the place which will hold many fond and special memories for me.
never cherished the times i had here, took it for granted.
'you'll never learn to cherish till you're on the verge of losing it.'
very true isnt it?
to the 'MA's: i really miss the days where we played and riot together, the camps we went to, the activities we organised together, the tears we shared, the joys we celebrated, the places we always went and even all the squabbles....
if ever i am given a chance to live a part of my life once again, i'll definitely choose to live the part with all you guys once again.
anyways, remember our plan?
we're gonna buy a plot of land together and design a bungalow of our own.
grace will be in charge of designing it, angel will be in charge of the kitchen (i didnt forget the cookies you promised me), sao will be in charge of the maintainence of the house and cook soup, mich will shop for groceries with jo, lavi and i will throw the fishes they buy into our pond and fish them out again for dinner (purpose: sense of satisfaction), and andrea will be take care of all our welfare.
*grins.
we'll share clothes.
we'll have a huge dining table.
we'll have a basketball court.
we'll have a pool.
we'll also have a ballet room.
we'll live happily ever after.
you guys are the ones i treasure most.
you guys are the ones who added colour to my life.
you guys are the ones i'll never forget.
you guys are the ones whose shoulders are always there for me to lean and cry on.
you guys are the ones with arms open wide for me to run into.
and you guys are the ones who'll walk me through the rest of my life.
i love you guys loads!
the 'MA's live on forever and we rock!
bringing me to his kingdom.
9:19 PM
