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Friday, April 17, 2009
cried myself to sleep again. i didn't wanted to.. i told myself to suck it in, to not let it affect me. but the tears were still on the verge of flowing, and they flowed.. sigh. and i woke up one hour before i'm suppose to. why can't i get out of this still? it's like a vicious cycle i can't break through. i know i keep creating chances that might hurt myself, i know i'm putting my fragile heart at a risk, and i know i'm digging my own grave in a way.. i know it all. but i just can't help it, i just can't help it okay? it's frustrating. and the stupid voices in my head just doesn't stop talking.. just do your master a favor and SHUT THE HELL UP okay? please, just stop the talking in my head.
honestly, h e ' s still the most important person in my life, the person i still care most about. h e ' s the first person on my mind when i wake up, and i fall asleep thinking of h i m. h e ' s still the first person i wanna share my joy with. when something new and different happens in my life, i still want h i m to be the first to know. when i'm upset or unhappy, h e ' s still the first person i wanna call and whine to. tell me, why is this so?
cos i feel he understands me like no other.
ooooohhhh.. i woke up feeling like shit but now i'm the happiest girl on earth!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahaha. it's GOOD friday again, and i'm more than ready to start my day!
he just called :)
bringing me to his kingdom.
9:41 AM
